Madison was always full of life. She was full of spunk and had a little attitude too. Her laugh or
Grief is a monster That comes each and every night With crooked horns and teeth so sharp He comes to
You are not hidden There’s never been a moment You were forgotten You are not hopeless Though you have been
In my experience, when psychiatry and counseling goes bad it can go really bad. It can be extremely traumatic to
This is a continuation of one of my previous writings: https://mygriefjourney.org/2019/05/10/attacking-a-broken-spirit/ How we treat others continues to weigh so incredibly
I have a confession. This confession feels absolutely terrible putting down in writing. It is my reality though. I do
I truly feel that more people have experienced something in life that has left them broken than those who have
Mother’s Day in the U.S. is this coming Sunday and National Bereaved Mother’s Day was this past Sunday. I, along
When I first lost my daughter I was in complete and utter shock. I was in shock for multiple reasons.
I read an article this morning titled “Researchers Reveal Losing A Dog Can Be As Hard As Losing A Loved
I have written some previously about my inability to physically go anywhere but one or two places and how I
I have been seeing a very common and consistent theme everywhere I turn lately. I hear and see people say
Some days just plain suck, but that’s okay. Some days I wish I could turn my back on all this
I had a dream A dream of you and me What a wonderful yet heartbreaking dream it would turn out
Everyone grieves at their own pace and in their own, very personal manner. So who’s to say that someone might
I have a lot of time to think to myself, I mean lots of time. I am typically in deep
When both of my daughters were little I used to have a recurring nightmare. It was the only nightmare I
One thing is certain in life; death shall come to us all. Death is inevitable and inescapable. We shall all
I have so much love locked inside my heart with no where to go or anything left to do. It
“There are far better things ahead than we leave behind”“You can’t step into the future still holding onto the past”“No
Sometimes in anticipation of upcoming milestones, I feel like sticking my head in the sand instead of facing them. I
There can be no turning back. If it were possible, I would’ve already found a way. Yesterday has gone and
There is no ‘at least’ in childloss. No one can convince me otherwise on this. I understand that people honestly
When a loved one dies it is perfectly natural to have feelings of regret. It’s natural to regret a conversation
In one of my previous blog posts titled “How Losing a Parent Differs from The Loss of a Child” I
I have a very simple answer to this question. LOVE, I love my daughter unconditionally in every possible sense of
It’s been a little more than two years keeping my feelings and what is in my heart almost entirely to
I’ve heard it said that there are signs of our loved ones everywhere. I’ve heard that some of the signs
Losing my daughter has absolutely flipped my entire existence upside down. I shall never return to the person I once
This is my song to my daughter. I’ve always felt that this song was written for both of my
One thing I’ve learned is that the smallest mention of her name makes most people squirm. My daughter lived dammit,
At times it feels like I’m sinking into a dark hole while screaming out “Why can’t anyone hear me? Can’t
Oh precious daughter, will there ever come a moment when my heart isn’t desperately searching for you? In everything I
When Maddy loved, she truly loved with her whole heart. She loved her Papaw wholeheartedly no doubt. He had always
This life long journey I’m on is hard. I know I’m not alone, but it’s still so lonely being here.
I know you I know all about you I know what it felt like as you grew inside me I
I never chose to become a grieving mother. There have been many times when I have wanted to give up
I have to remind myself to breathe most every day. I honestly believe with some things there are just no
My father passed away after a long battle with pancreatic cancer just a little over a year before my daughter
Laura Wyatt Douglass
I am not what I’d consider a writer. But my heart has something to say and has transformed me in such a way, that I have found my words through writing. I’ve felt a strong pull to begin writing for some time and finally gathered the courage to start doing so during the beginning of 2019.
Everything I write in this blog is from deep within my heart and a result of the undying love I have for my daughter.
I sincerely hope my story & grief journey can touch someone’s heart or at the very least, let someone know they are not alone.
I am the mother of 2 beautiful daughters & have found myself now torn between Heaven and Earth. I’m also a wife, grandmother (Lala), sister, daughter & friend.
In the professional world, I am an assistant controller for a large manufacturing company.
This grief journey I’m on is such a difficult place to be in life. It has been very lonely. Grief is yet a walk alone, as they say; Alone, even when in the presence of others.
Since the loss of my daughter, I have been trying desperately to find my way in this new life.
“This is my story, this is my song.”
A BRIEF SUMMARY OF MY UNIMAGINABLE LOSS:
On Dec. 11, 2016 my life changed forever. I lost my precious 15 year old daughter abruptly and tragically. She had passed out in the bathtub and drowned after huffing some compressed air. I found her very soon after it happened, but she was not able to be saved. I won’t go into anymore detail, but I will say that our youth are being brought up in an extremely dangerous world. As parents we do everything we can to teach and protect them. But the knowledge they possess and the exposure to things we never even imagined growing up is absolutely overwhelming these days.
Not a day or moment goes by that I do not long for and miss my daughter. She was my sunshine, my life, my light, my future, my hopes and my dreams.
This terrible unimaginable day began my lifelong journey as a grieving mother.
I also write about my father. He lost his long battle with pancreatic cancer just a little over a year before I lost my daughter. I am also a grieving daughter. My father was my first love, my protector and my hero. Losing a parent comes with it’s own challenges. I love and miss my Daddy too.
I am forever changed.