My Walk Through Grief While Relearning This Thing Called Life
Losing my daughter has absolutely flipped my entire existence upside down. I shall never return to the person I once was. How could I as her mother remain unchanged? Not every change has been absolutely dreadful though & some have even been positive. The Positive I have become more aware of a need to… Continue reading How Losing a Child Changes Everything
This is my song to my daughter. I've always felt that this song was written for both of my daughters, even before losing Madison. It never mattered what happened or what we went through. Things were not always perfect, we had arguments, we didn't always see eye to eye, but to me no matter what… Continue reading Look at the Stars – Look How They Shine For You
One thing I’ve learned is that the smallest mention of her name makes most people squirm. My daughter lived dammit, I want to hear her name & talk about her. To me the simple mention of her name is the most beautiful sound I could hear. It’s also amazing how almost every person you know… Continue reading My Child Lived
Illustration used to show how grief can feel At times it feels like I’m sinking into a dark hole while screaming out “Why can’t anyone hear me? Can’t anyone see the pain I’m in? Why isn’t anyone helping me?” But all my screams are totally silent so I go another day feeling like my pain… Continue reading Sinking-Screaming Silently
Oh precious daughter, will there ever come a moment when my heart isn’t desperately searching for you? In everything I do I search for you. https://youtu.be/LMpwWSFEvEYFor Anyone That Is Missing Someone
When Maddy loved, she truly loved with her whole heart. She loved her Papaw wholeheartedly no doubt. He had always been a huge part of her everyday life for most of her life. I know from personal experience all the reasons she loved him so, as he is my father and in my eyes no… Continue reading When Maddy Loved
This life long journey I’m on is hard. I know I’m not alone, but it’s still so lonely being here. See, I have two beautiful daughters which I love more than anything in the world. I’m a mother here on earth and I’m a mother in heaven. This journey of mine is not fair to… Continue reading Half Here – Half There
I know you I know all about you I know what it felt like as you grew inside me I know what it felt like to hold you for the first time & every time that followed I know every fleck of color & sparkle in your eyes I know the tears that fell from… Continue reading I Know You
I never chose to become a grieving mother. There have been many times when I have wanted to give up completely and I often wonder how I haven’t died from my broken heart alone. Surely it’s enough to stop a heart, right? Carrying such lament is not for the faint of heart. It takes a… Continue reading Reasons Why I’m Strong
I have to remind myself to breathe most every day. I honestly believe with some things there are absolutely no quick fixes because sometimes you cannot possibly foresee a future, after having your life altered in such a earth shattering way. Healing can come too, however small it may seem. Many of us will all continue… Continue reading Just Breathe
My father passed away after a long battle with pancreatic cancer just a little over a year before my daughter left this world too. I always thought that losing my parents would be the most difficult thing I would ever go through or have to face. I recall a conversation I had with him just… Continue reading In My Experience – How Losing a Parent Differs From The Loss of a Child
