I am the mother of 2 beautiful daughters and have found myself now torn between Heaven & Earth. I am a wife, Lala (grandmother), sister, daughter & friend. In the professional world, I am an assistant controller for a manufacturing company. I am not what I’d consider a writer. My heart however, has something to say and God has transformed and allowed me to open my eyes to a new purpose through writing. I’ve felt a strong pull to begin writing about my experiences for some time and finally gathered enough courage to start doing so during the first part of 2019.
A BRIEF SUMMARY OF MY UNIMAGINABLE LOSS:
On Dec. 11, 2016, my life changed forever. I lost my youngest daughter, abruptly and tragically, at the age of 15 years old. She had passed out in the bathtub and drowned after huffing some compressed air. I found her very soon after it happened, but she was unable to be saved. I’m not going into greater detail regarding this terrible accident just yet, but do feel compelled to say that our youth are being brought up in an extremely dangerous world. As parents we do everything we can to teach and protect them. But the knowledge they possess, and the exposure to things we never even imagined growing up is absolutely overwhelming these days.
This terrible unimaginable day began my lifelong journey as a grieving mother.
Not a day or a moment goes by that I do not long for and miss my daughter. She was my sunshine, my life, my light, my future, my hopes and my dreams.
Everything I write about and share here, in this blog is from deep within my heart and a direct reflection of the undying love I have for my daughter. I have also discovered that invaluable morals and integrity instilled in me from a very young age, until now, through constant and unwavering example has contributed greatly to my writing as well; I have my Mother and Father to thank for teaching me these things. They are two of the strongest and most influential people I’ve ever known.
In this blog, I also write about losing a parent. My father lost his battle with pancreatic cancer in 2015, just a little over a year before my daughter passed away too, joining him in Heaven. I am a grieving daughter; My father was my very first love, my protector and my super hero. Losing a parent comes with it’s own challenges. I love and miss my Daddy too.
I sincerely hope my words, experiences & grief journey will touch someone’s heart or at the very least, let someone know they are not alone in this world.
I have forever been changed and “This is my story, this is my song.”