Category: Mental Health & Healing

The Broken And Exhausted

I have three horses. All three of them have been rescued from an uncertain future and likely untimely death due to being thrown into the slaughter pipeline. There is no telling how they ended up there, but probably because they were sold at an over crowded horse auction, where towards the end of the night

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My Dysfunctional Anxiety

In my prior blog post:  WAIT A MINUTE…MY BIG GIRL PANTS SUDDENLY GOT WAY TOO SMALL AND WAY TOO FAST I talked about my latest panic attack. I had gone to the store for a simple task and ended up having a full-blown panic attack as I was leaving and on the way to my

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Wait a Minute…My Big Girl Pants Suddenly Got Way Too Small and Way Too Fast

Before I get started, let me just say that I’m going to try to make as much light of this situation as I can. Because it was an extraordinarily difficult day to begin with, already planning on attending Madison’s Senior classmates’ graduation the same night and not knowing how the evening would play out at

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Grief is a Monster

Grief is a monster That comes each and every night With crooked horns and teeth so sharp He comes to fill you full of fright And keep your rest at bay A monster looming A shadow in the dark So awake you stay Until the break of day Forget sleeping in It’s time you’re on

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My Personal Experience With Psychiatry & Professional Counseling – Child Loss Grief

In my experience, when psychiatry and counseling goes bad, it can go really bad. It can be extremely traumatic to the one trusting a professional for help. This is the story of my journey into the world of psychiatry and professional counseling. My daughter passed away on December 11, 2016. As a mother, I had

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Spread Kindness In A World Filled With Hatred

This is a continuation of one of my previous writings: ATTACKING A BROKEN SPIRIT How we treat others continues to weigh so incredibly heavy on my heart. It may seem as though the act of kindness is a fairly simple concept. But I think some might be surprised how being a beacon of kindness is

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Attacking a Broken Spirit

I truly feel that more people have experienced something in life that has left them broken than those who have not. Some people never recover from these things. For those of us that have not been able to recover, it is extremely important to protect our already broken spirit anytime we can.     One

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Knowing My Own Limits While Re-Entering Life

I have written some previously about my inability to physically go anywhere but one or two places and how I have become almost entirely agoraphobic because I suffer from overwhelming fear & panic while in public as well as most social situations. This is the most frequent topic of conversation with my grief councillor. He

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So you say you’re not okay

I have been seeing a very common and consistent theme everywhere I turn lately. I hear and see people say the following things way too regularly. “I AM NOT OKAY” “I AM NOT STRONG (EVEN THOUGH EVERYONE KEEPS TELLING ME I AM)” “I CAN’T CONTINUE WITH THIS PAIN” First. You are NOT alone. Your feelings

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Let’s Talk Unresolved or Complicated Grief

Everyone grieves at their own pace and in their own, very personal manner. So who’s to say that someone might have unresolved or complicated grief? Is there really anything ‘normal’ when it comes to grieving the loss of someone you love? How is grief not complicated and how is it ever possible to resolve? Who

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Seeing Myself Unabridged

I have a lot of time to think to myself, I mean lots of time. I am typically in deep thought even when I am busy doing something else. I am not present even while in the presence of others. I have become an efficient multitasker, but with the consequence of disconnecting. This post isn’t

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Sinking-Screaming Silently

At times it feels like I’m sinking into a dark hole while screaming out “Why can’t anyone hear me? Can’t anyone see the pain I’m in? Why isn’t anyone helping me?” But all my screams are totally silent so I go another day feeling like my pain is completely invisible to everyone else. The sensation

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