Anger

I've been fairly silent lately and not expressing what's been going on in my heart. To be honest, I just haven't had the words recently. I've been stuck in some sort of deep sadness. However, my emotions haven't been completely running away with me, so I think I've been in a more quiet grief place… Continue reading Anger

A Life Somewhere Between A Glass Half Full & A Glass Half Empty

I've always thought of myself as a glass half-full type person. Never the outwardly bubbly, or overly cheerful type, but I'd definitely say that I'm a positive thinker. I don't typically complain about much anything, at all, or ever really, and I can usually find something positive to say about anyone or just about any… Continue reading A Life Somewhere Between A Glass Half Full & A Glass Half Empty

Memories of You

Memories Are what my mind turns to  So I sink into the memories These memories I have of you   No one will ever fully Fully comprehend Just how much I long I long to be with you  And how I'll always cherish Every sweet memory, I have of you I don't want to turn… Continue reading Memories of You

Bear Witness

There are no quick fixes Or remedies for our pain There is nothing That can take it away When you know someone Who has lost another they love Please do not turn and walk away Instead, just bear witness To what we have to say Our hearts have been broken And we know all to… Continue reading Bear Witness

My Soul Will Find Yours

I will look for you Until I draw my last breath I'll never let go Not even in death If it takes a thousand years or more Still I will find you Someday and somehow I'll never lose hope And my soul will find yours https://youtu.be/54DMWdzROH0

For You Daddy

In all my days I'll always wonder What you would think of me now In all my days I'll want to know If I still make you proud of me Daddy In all my days I'll be your blonde haired, blue eyed little girl The one you always saw when you looked at me In… Continue reading For You Daddy

The Broken And Exhausted

I have three horses. All three of them have been rescued from an uncertain future and likely untimely death due to being thrown into the slaughter pipeline. There is no telling how they ended up there, but probably because they were sold at an over crowded horse auction, where towards the end of the night… Continue reading The Broken And Exhausted

The Legacy We Leave

I’ve decided to try a couple of other platforms to showcase some of my writing. I haven’t been getting as much traffic to my website as I’d like. In the 3 months I’ve been writing and pouring my heart out, I’ve still only seen a little over 4,300 visitors to Laura Simply Stumbling here on… Continue reading The Legacy We Leave

Reflection

When I look in the mirror The only reflection I see Is a shell of a woman A woman that used to be Who is this now The one staring back at me Her face seems familiar But she is not who she used to be Where is she hiding Or is she simply waiting… Continue reading Reflection

These Tears I’ve Shed

A million tears have touched these cheeks All the tears I’ve shed for you I only shed these tears Because I’m missing you I shed them when I’m feeling blue Each and every tear that falls Is a memory I have of you A million tears have touched these cheeks All the tears I’ve shed… Continue reading These Tears I’ve Shed

What I’ve come to learn about online grieving & support groups

I'm a member of a few online grieving groups through social media. The handful of groups I am part of are intended solely for either grieving mothers or both mothers and fathers. There are many groups available for those who have lost siblings, spouses, parents and grandparents, etc. too. Child loss is where I've found… Continue reading What I’ve come to learn about online grieving & support groups

For Maddy On Her 18th Birthday

Madison's 18th Birthday is tomorrow, the 27th of June. Just like with many other milestones one can face after the loss of a child, the days leading up can prove to be challenging. Anticipation has already been hitting me pretty hard. There have been many difficult milestones to get through this year. Just like any… Continue reading For Maddy On Her 18th Birthday

When Does Your Time Limit For Grieving Expire

At some point we all reach a time in our grieving process when people begin to find it more and more unacceptable that we continue to grieve our loved ones. They may even say things that make us feel guilty for grieving. They may begin to speak behind our backs, saying things like, "enough is… Continue reading When Does Your Time Limit For Grieving Expire

The Haunting

I have this haunting A haunting, no one else can see You, my dear, have left and haunted me You left me with this haunting so deep inside of me I have this haunting, you see A haunting of dreams to never be And a future changed so shockingly Never before have I felt so… Continue reading The Haunting

My Dysfunctional Anxiety

In my prior blog post:  WAIT A MINUTE...MY BIG GIRL PANTS SUDDENLY GOT WAY TOO SMALL AND WAY TOO FAST I talked about my latest panic attack. I had gone to the store for a simple task and ended up having a full-blown panic attack as I was leaving and on the way to my… Continue reading My Dysfunctional Anxiety

Wait a Minute…My Big Girl Pants Suddenly Got Way Too Small and Way Too Fast

Before I get started, let me just say that I'm going to try to make as much light of this situation as I can. Because it was an extraordinarily difficult day to begin with, already planning on attending Madison's Senior classmates’ graduation the same night and not knowing how the evening would play out at… Continue reading Wait a Minute…My Big Girl Pants Suddenly Got Way Too Small and Way Too Fast

The Empty Chair

This past Friday, I attended what would have been my daughter Madison's High School Graduation. I knew it would no doubt, be one of the most difficult milestones I've had to face to date. However, I truly and wholeheartedly wanted to be there to see her friends graduate and watch them celebrate in their accomplishments.… Continue reading The Empty Chair

Through Her Mother’s Eyes

Madison was always full of life. She was full of spunk and had a little attitude too. Her laugh or smile could change your day in the matter of seconds. She was ferocious and so very tender at the same time. She loved to joke around and was so extremely smart and witty. She loved… Continue reading Through Her Mother’s Eyes

Grief is a Monster

Grief is a monster That comes each and every night With crooked horns and teeth so sharp He comes to fill you full of fright And keep your rest at bay A monster looming A shadow in the dark So awake you stay Until the break of day Forget sleeping in It's time you're on… Continue reading Grief is a Monster

Rescue by Lauren Daigle – Worth the Listen If You Have a Broken Heart

https://youtu.be/2FhQCYGYXzw You are not hidden There's never been a moment You were forgotten You are not hopeless Though you have been broken Your innocence stolen I hear you whisper underneath your breath I hear your SOS, your SOS I will send out an army to find you In the middle of the darkest night It's… Continue reading Rescue by Lauren Daigle – Worth the Listen If You Have a Broken Heart

My Personal Experience With Psychiatry & Professional Counseling – Child Loss Grief

In my experience, when psychiatry and counseling goes bad, it can go really bad. It can be extremely traumatic to the one trusting a professional for help. This is the story of my journey into the world of psychiatry and professional counseling. My daughter passed away on December 11, 2016. As a mother, I had… Continue reading My Personal Experience With Psychiatry & Professional Counseling – Child Loss Grief

Spread Kindness In A World Filled With Hatred

This is a continuation of one of my previous writings: ATTACKING A BROKEN SPIRIT How we treat others continues to weigh so incredibly heavy on my heart. It may seem as though the act of kindness is a fairly simple concept. But I think some might be surprised how being a beacon of kindness is… Continue reading Spread Kindness In A World Filled With Hatred

Dreams

I have a confession. This confession feels absolutely terrible to even put in writing. It is my reality though. I do not dream of Madison. I have only had three dreams of her that I actually remember since the day she left. I don't know why; I try so hard to dream of her. Every… Continue reading Dreams

Attacking a Broken Spirit

I truly feel that more people have experienced something in life that has left them broken than those who have not. Some people never recover from these things. For those of us that have not been able to recover, it is extremely important to protect our already broken spirit anytime we can.     One… Continue reading Attacking a Broken Spirit

Facing Mother’s Day With a Broken Heart

Mother's Day in the U.S. is this coming Sunday and National Bereaved Mother's Day was this past Sunday. I, along with so many other mothers find it hard to know where we fit on these days intended to honor our motherhood. National Bereaved Mother's Day was created to celebrate, honor and remember mothers who have… Continue reading Facing Mother’s Day With a Broken Heart