Tag: Father

For You Daddy

In all my days I’ll always wonder What you would think of me now In all my days I’ll want to know If I still make you proud of me Daddy In all my days I’ll be your blonde haired, blue eyed little girl The one you always saw when you looked at me In

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Laura Wyatt Douglass – Author of: Laura Simply Stumbling

I am the mother of 2 beautiful daughters and have found myself now torn between Heaven & Earth. I am a wife, Lala (grandmother), sister, daughter & friend. In the professional world, I am an assistant controller for a manufacturing company. I am not what I’d consider a writer. My heart however, has something to

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Can Losing A Pet Be As Hard As Losing A Loved One

I read an article this morning titled “Researchers Reveal Losing A Dog Can Be As Hard As Losing A Loved One”. I read the article in full and I do not disagree that losing a beloved pet can DEFINITELY be hard and that we can love our pets so much that we do have to

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Knowing My Own Limits While Re-Entering Life

I have written some previously about my inability to physically go anywhere but one or two places and how I have become almost entirely agoraphobic because I suffer from overwhelming fear & panic while in public as well as most social situations. This is the most frequent topic of conversation with my grief councillor. He

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So you say you’re not okay

I have been seeing a very common and consistent theme everywhere I turn lately. I hear and see people say the following things way too regularly. “I AM NOT OKAY” “I AM NOT STRONG (EVEN THOUGH EVERYONE KEEPS TELLING ME I AM)” “I CAN’T CONTINUE WITH THIS PAIN” First. You are NOT alone. Your feelings

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Death Stole My Future

One thing is certain in life; death shall come to us all. Death is inevitable and inescapable. We shall all meet death eventually. I’ve written some about losing my father to cancer. The loss of my father is something I shall always grieve. I miss him more than I can ever describe. I do however

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No ‘at least’ in child loss – My two cents on saying at least to a grieving parent

There is no ‘at least’ in childloss. No one can convince me otherwise on this. I understand that people honestly mean well anytime they begin a sentence with “at least” while speaking of my loss. The truth is, that I cringe inside when anyone says something like “At least you have another child. At least

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A Moment Between Father & Daughter

In one of my previous blog posts titled: How Losing a Parent Differs From The Loss of a Child, I spoke about losing my father and how he never left me. Part of it read: My father passed away after a long battle with pancreatic cancer just a little over a year before my daughter left this

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His Patience and My Purpose

It’s been a little more than two years keeping my feelings and what is in my heart almost entirely to myself, only ever speaking of the most superficial. I’ve never spoke aloud or written any of what’s been pouring out of my heart recently. I have been so angry with God over Maddy’s death. But

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Signs From Our Loved Ones

I’ve heard it said that there are signs of our loved ones everywhere. I’ve heard that some of the signs can come by way of butterflies, dragonflies, cardinals, a cloud formation, a ray of light or feathers, just to name a few. I’ve seen all of these things regularly throughout my journey and I want

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Sinking-Screaming Silently

At times it feels like I’m sinking into a dark hole while screaming out “Why can’t anyone hear me? Can’t anyone see the pain I’m in? Why isn’t anyone helping me?” But all my screams are totally silent so I go another day feeling like my pain is completely invisible to everyone else. The sensation

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When Maddy Loved

When Maddy loved, she truly loved with her whole heart. She loved her Papaw wholeheartedly no doubt. He had always been a huge part of her everyday life for most of her life. I know from personal experience all the reasons she loved him so, as he is my father and in my eyes no

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Just Breathe

I have to remind myself to breathe most every day. I honestly believe with some things there are absolutely no quick fixes because sometimes you cannot possibly foresee a future, after having your life altered in such a earth shattering way. Healing can come too, however small it may seem. Many of us will all continue

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In My Experience – How Losing a Parent Differs From The Loss of a Child

My father passed away after a long battle with pancreatic cancer just a little over a year before my daughter left this world too. I always thought that losing my parents would be the most difficult thing I would ever go through or have to face. I recall a conversation I had with him just

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