My Walk Through Grief While Relearning This Thing Called Life
I wear a necklace Around my neck A thumbprint pendant From someone I hold quite dear Someone who Is no longer near So I rub the pendant With my eyes shut tight And make a wish To dream tonight A Dream is the only place I can feel you near And touch your face Now… Continue reading Thumbprint Pendant
Tomorrow, August 22nd will mark four years since my father left this earth to live out his eternal life in Heaven. After a lengthy battle with pancreatic cancer, my daddy drew his last breath on a Saturday, August 22, 2015 at approximately 6:15 p.m. It seems like just yesterday, I saw him last. My father… Continue reading Seems Like Just Yesterday
I've always thought of myself as a glass half-full type person. Never the outwardly bubbly, or overly cheerful type, but I'd definitely say that I'm a positive thinker. I don't typically complain about much anything, at all, or ever really, and I can usually find something positive to say about anyone or just about any… Continue reading A Life Somewhere Between A Glass Half Full & A Glass Half Empty
In life, there are things we take for granted. Some may not be apparent until they are lost. After the loss of a loved one, there is much time spent remembering all the little things; moments we might have forgotten or continued to take for granted otherwise. This has been the case for me anyway.… Continue reading Things Taken For Granted
Memories Are what my mind turns to So I sink into the memories These memories I have of you No one will ever fully Fully comprehend Just how much I long I long to be with you And how I'll always cherish Every sweet memory, I have of you I don't want to turn… Continue reading Memories of You
There are no quick fixes Or remedies for our pain There is nothing That can take it away When you know someone Who has lost another they love Please do not turn and walk away Instead, just bear witness To what we have to say Our hearts have been broken And we know all to… Continue reading Bear Witness
I will look for you Until I draw my last breath I'll never let go Not even in death If it takes a thousand years or more Still I will find you Someday and somehow I'll never lose hope And my soul will find yours https://youtu.be/54DMWdzROH0
In all my days I'll always wonder What you would think of me now In all my days I'll want to know If I still make you proud of me Daddy In all my days I'll be your blonde haired, blue eyed little girl The one you always saw when you looked at me In… Continue reading For You Daddy
I’ve decided to try a couple of other platforms to showcase some of my writing. I haven’t been getting as much traffic to my website as I’d like. In the 3 months I’ve been writing and pouring my heart out, I’ve still only seen a little over 4,300 visitors to Laura Simply Stumbling here on… Continue reading The Legacy We Leave
A million tears have touched these cheeks All the tears I’ve shed for you I only shed these tears Because I’m missing you I shed them when I’m feeling blue Each and every tear that falls Is a memory I have of you A million tears have touched these cheeks All the tears I’ve shed… Continue reading These Tears I’ve Shed
Madison's 18th Birthday is tomorrow, the 27th of June. Just like with many other milestones one can face after the loss of a child, the days leading up can prove to be challenging. Anticipation has already been hitting me pretty hard. There have been many difficult milestones to get through this year. Just like any… Continue reading For Maddy On Her 18th Birthday
At some point we all reach a time in our grieving process when people begin to find it more and more unacceptable that we continue to grieve our loved ones. They may even say things that make us feel guilty for grieving. They may begin to speak behind our backs, saying things like, "enough is… Continue reading When Does Your Time Limit For Grieving Expire
I have this haunting A haunting, no one else can see You, my dear, have left and haunted me You left me with this haunting so deep inside of me I have this haunting, you see A haunting of dreams to never be And a future changed so shockingly Never before have I felt so… Continue reading The Haunting
In my prior blog post: WAIT A MINUTE...MY BIG GIRL PANTS SUDDENLY GOT WAY TOO SMALL AND WAY TOO FAST I talked about my latest panic attack. I had gone to the store for a simple task and ended up having a full-blown panic attack as I was leaving and on the way to my… Continue reading My Dysfunctional Anxiety
Grief is a monster That comes each and every night With crooked horns and teeth so sharp He comes to fill you full of fright And keep your rest at bay A monster looming A shadow in the dark So awake you stay Until the break of day Forget sleeping in It's time you're on… Continue reading Grief is a Monster
https://youtu.be/2FhQCYGYXzw You are not hidden There's never been a moment You were forgotten You are not hopeless Though you have been broken Your innocence stolen I hear you whisper underneath your breath I hear your SOS, your SOS I will send out an army to find you In the middle of the darkest night It's… Continue reading Rescue by Lauren Daigle – Worth the Listen If You Have a Broken Heart
In my experience, when psychiatry and counseling goes bad, it can go really bad. It can be extremely traumatic to the one trusting a professional for help. This is the story of my journey into the world of psychiatry and professional counseling. My daughter passed away on December 11, 2016. As a mother, I had… Continue reading My Personal Experience With Psychiatry & Professional Counseling – Child Loss Grief
I have a confession. This confession feels absolutely terrible to even put in writing. It is my reality though. I do not dream of Madison. I have only had three dreams of her that I actually remember since the day she left. I don't know why; I try so hard to dream of her. Every… Continue reading Dreams
Mother's Day in the U.S. is this coming Sunday and National Bereaved Mother's Day was this past Sunday. I, along with so many other mothers find it hard to know where we fit on these days intended to honor our motherhood. National Bereaved Mother's Day was created to celebrate, honor and remember mothers who have… Continue reading Facing Mother’s Day With a Broken Heart
When I first lost my daughter I was in complete and utter shock. I was in shock for multiple reasons. My precious baby had died plus I had suffered great trauma in finding her and trying to save her. The time leading up to her funeral service was a blur. I remember that I could… Continue reading Because of HIS Grace I Stood
Some days just plain suck, but that's okay. Some days I wish I could turn my back on all this grief, this unbearable pain in my heart, this terrible uncertainty, unnatural fear and anxiety. I wish I could turn my back on it all; All this emotional turmoil that takes such a great toll and… Continue reading Some Days Just Suck
Everyone grieves at their own pace and in their own, very personal manner. So who's to say that someone might have unresolved or complicated grief? Is there really anything 'normal' when it comes to grieving the loss of someone you love? How is grief not complicated and how is it ever possible to resolve? Who… Continue reading Let’s Talk Unresolved or Complicated Grief
There is no ‘at least’ in childloss. No one can convince me otherwise on this. I understand that people honestly mean well anytime they begin a sentence with “at least” while speaking of my loss. The truth is, that I cringe inside when anyone says something like “At least you have another child. At least… Continue reading No ‘at least’ in child loss – My two cents on saying at least to a grieving parent
