Anger

I've been fairly silent lately and not expressing what's been going on in my heart. To be honest, I just haven't had the words recently. I've been stuck in some sort of deep sadness. However, my emotions haven't been completely running away with me, so I think I've been in a more quiet grief place… Continue reading Anger

Bear Witness

There are no quick fixes Or remedies for our pain There is nothing That can take it away When you know someone Who has lost another they love Please do not turn and walk away Instead, just bear witness To what we have to say Our hearts have been broken And we know all to… Continue reading Bear Witness

Reflection

When I look in the mirror The only reflection I see Is a shell of a woman A woman that used to be Who is this now The one staring back at me Her face seems familiar But she is not who she used to be Where is she hiding Or is she simply waiting… Continue reading Reflection

For Maddy On Her 18th Birthday

Madison's 18th Birthday is tomorrow, the 27th of June. Just like with many other milestones one can face after the loss of a child, the days leading up can prove to be challenging. Anticipation has already been hitting me pretty hard. There have been many difficult milestones to get through this year. Just like any… Continue reading For Maddy On Her 18th Birthday

When Does Your Time Limit For Grieving Expire

At some point we all reach a time in our grieving process when people begin to find it more and more unacceptable that we continue to grieve our loved ones. They may even say things that make us feel guilty for grieving. They may begin to speak behind our backs, saying things like, "enough is… Continue reading When Does Your Time Limit For Grieving Expire

The Haunting

I have this haunting A haunting, no one else can see You, my dear, have left and haunted me You left me with this haunting so deep inside of me I have this haunting, you see A haunting of dreams to never be And a future changed so shockingly Never before have I felt so… Continue reading The Haunting

My Dysfunctional Anxiety

In my prior blog post:  WAIT A MINUTE...MY BIG GIRL PANTS SUDDENLY GOT WAY TOO SMALL AND WAY TOO FAST I talked about my latest panic attack. I had gone to the store for a simple task and ended up having a full-blown panic attack as I was leaving and on the way to my… Continue reading My Dysfunctional Anxiety