Dreams

I have a confession. This confession feels absolutely terrible to even put in writing. It is my reality though. I do not dream of Madison. I have only had three dreams of her that I actually remember since the day she left. I don't know why; I try so hard to dream of her. Every… Continue reading Dreams

Because of HIS Grace I Stood

When I first lost my daughter I was in complete and utter shock. I was in shock for multiple reasons. My precious baby had died plus I had suffered great trauma in finding her and trying to save her. The time leading up to her funeral service was a blur. I remember that I could… Continue reading Because of HIS Grace I Stood

Can Losing A Pet Be As Hard As Losing A Loved One

I read an article this morning titled “Researchers Reveal Losing A Dog Can Be As Hard As Losing A Loved One”. I read the article in full and I do not disagree that losing a beloved pet can DEFINITELY be hard and that we can love our pets so much that we do have to… Continue reading Can Losing A Pet Be As Hard As Losing A Loved One

Knowing My Own Limits While Re-Entering Life

I have written some previously about my inability to physically go anywhere but one or two places and how I have become almost entirely agoraphobic because I suffer from overwhelming fear & panic while in public as well as most social situations. This is the most frequent topic of conversation with my grief councillor. He… Continue reading Knowing My Own Limits While Re-Entering Life

So you say you’re not okay

I have been seeing a very common and consistent theme everywhere I turn lately. I hear and see people say the following things way too regularly. "I AM NOT OKAY" "I AM NOT STRONG (EVEN THOUGH EVERYONE KEEPS TELLING ME I AM)" "I CAN'T CONTINUE WITH THIS PAIN" First. You are NOT alone. Your feelings… Continue reading So you say you’re not okay

Some Days Just Suck

Some days just plain suck, but that's okay. Some days I wish I could turn my back on all this grief, this unbearable pain in my heart, this terrible uncertainty, unnatural fear and anxiety. I wish I could turn my back on it all; All this emotional turmoil that takes such a great toll and… Continue reading Some Days Just Suck

In a Dream of You & Me

I had a dream A dream of you and me What a wonderful yet heartbreaking dream it would turn out to be We sat so close Face to face Not doing or saying a thing We both were content Just you and me I reached for your face To see if you were real Then… Continue reading In a Dream of You & Me